was with b.f/partner for 11yrs til oct just gone, have 4yr old son together.
were not really gettig on to point if dound out he was drinking more than i thought n cause him hiding it, rang mil at 1.20 in morning to ask for help with him. she said kick him out, before this he went out with mate 1 night didnt have a key cause lost it, i said go have nice eve and i wait up, he never came home til i contacted his sister at 1am saying he not home and worried cause he knew i was waiting up, asked for his mates number but when i called it his mate was talking to him saying just tell her to came to mine so f ing what, he finally came home @230am, i ended up telling him to sleep in the front room cause he was drunk i later found out his mates ex was there after he said there was no girls there, although i know she aint intrested in him i was still angry. to pay him back for the treatment i said ds is not going to his gd birthdayparty that was a joint neices party to, he begged for ages saying dont do this, but i did i stood my ground.. he said that day something switched in him and he no longer loves me or want to be with me because of all the stress we have had together over the last 10yrs he has had enough and it was last straw.
however i been begging him to come home calling texting emailing, and not at the point where i blocked him n his family n friends on facebook. i dnt want to meet face to face anymore cause it is to painful but we have a son together, so i drop him at sil and pick him up or he is dropped off to me so me n ex never meet.. ex finally sent text last night saying not going through sis to talk about my son, i got drunk last night whilst son was with him for the night sat crying n kinda begging him back.. he said he still wants to b friends but i said u have your mates that dont hurt you or ur family or friends, y b mates with me, he is adamanat he wants friendship n nothing else... i asked y n he said cause we have history and a son together, but he also sent me text this morning asking if im ok after the drinking session. i said well you r thinking of me enough to worry if im ok and want to be mates and see me y, if u dont want to b partners with m would u want this.. people split n do the dropping off thingy im doing so they dnt see eachother, but y does he still want me in this way ???????
im spending my time looking online on how to get him back or how to get over him
im confused