Hello ladies may I join you? I'm in the process of divorce but live in France and am apart from my very close friends who sometimes I want to talk to about normal life and not the antics of my STBXH.
I've told my story on MN before, basically me and DCs live in France, H was in UK working Mon-Fri would come and visit on a weekend. Visits gradually became less and less and he claimed lack of money. Three weeks after our family holiday, he phoned me one Sunday afternoon and in a three minute phone call said, I don't want to be married to you anymore. Then turned his phone off for two weeks. In that two weeks he blocked me, my family and friends from his Facebook and declared he was in a relationship with OW. I immediately contacted a solicitor and filed for divorce. The OW had been putting messages on his FB while it said at the top "WankyBoy is married to Alex Rider" things like calling him Mr Wonderful and I really, really luffs you. I trusted him so much I thought it was just somebody with FB nonsense. It does make me think he must have told her some massive lies about our marriage or she really didn't give a stuff.
We now have Decree Nisi and are going towards Decree Absolute but he keeps changing his mind about things, sending me ranty emails etc, my response to this now is to ignore, ignore, ignore.
I realise although I was shocked and saddened at the sudden end of our marriage (17 years) once I'd got over that I was incredibly relieved, I'd fallen out of love with him years ago, he had quite serious issues with personal hygiene that he didn't address and just his attitude toward me generally was a turn off. Our oldest DC has SEN and I've been by myself for years dealing with that, H never really parented, although the DCS do adore him. However, since he left I find myself with an uncontrollable rage, it's not like me at all, and it's directed at him because of his treatment of the DCs. He has rarely visited them, when he does his day consists of time in front of a screen somewhere (iPad, DVD etc) and a sandwich from Lidl. They do stay overnight with him in a Travelodge style hotel but now he says he won't do that anymore because of the cost. He goes on about cost all the time, but the thing is I still access his credit card bills, he has literally spent in excess of £10,000 on credit cards since he left in August having a good time. He and OW go to restaurants, hotels, he has family days out with her and her DCs. I am so incredibly angry that his own DCs barely get the crumbs from the table. Although he pays maintenance at the same level as the CSA would stipulate.
I realise now he has always had a narcissistic personality, very much like a spoiled child, he has always wanted his gadgets and has left me and the DCs without money for food while he has bought a new camera and has even stolen from his employers just to get an iPad. He tries to blame me now for his debt, he doesn't know I can see his credit cards, it's shocking he is now £14,000 in debt on cards. I'm guessing the OW doesn't know yet, but I'm sure the good times will stop when the credit runs out and then where will he be?
I am so angry at him for being this great dad to the OW's kids, she even calls her youngest "our boy", they've only been together since the end of June, beginning of July as far as I can make out. He hasn't seen my own DCs this year, again claiming cost, but I know he and the other woman are going to gigs and staying in expensive hotels. I'm the one who has to deal with the questions about when is daddy coming to visit?
Sorry, this has been incredibly long, but like I say, I'm so angry with him for his neglect of our beautiful DCs. I fully anticipate that by the end of the year he will have forgotten about them. It's so sad.