I'm needing to vent, I know what needs to be done. I posted very late on Xmas eve saying that dp had went out drinking and hadn't came home. He eventually came in at about half 3. Xmas morning he didn't get up to watch ds open his presents but I relented and let him come to my mums for dinner as planned, partly because I felt bad about him sitting alone and partly because I didn't want to be answering questions all day and it turning into being all about me.
Not only Xmas eve, he was out on the 23rd, stayed in at my mums on Xmas day but had a drink, was working boxing night and last night. He's going out tonight, I text him to tell him it was ridiculous as we haven't spent any time to ourselves over Xmas and he text saying 'I was going to stay in but yet again you have pushed me into going out. Do you never learn?' Raging doesn't even cover how I feel about this message.
Anyway, this is just another thing in the long list of shitty things he does to me. He goes out at least once a week, mostly twice. I never get out or any other time to myself as I'm at uni or have ds and apparently I should be ok with this as I'm doing something that I love? What I'm doing is fucking hard work, at home, studying, at uni and on placement. I get literally no help around the house, nothing at all. He won't even lift his dirty washing on a regular basis so it sits there. There's no affection on his part anymore but he constantly says I'm trying to make things work MY ARSE The only one that tries is me I buy all the shopping to feed us and ds, all the nappies, wipes etc. I'm a student and he is a fucking assistant manager!! He earns double what I do. This is only a few things.
I'm leaving, I can't handle it anymore. He's financially and emotionally draining me. Thankfully I haven't noticed ds being any different but I know it will start to affect him eventually. I just need to get some money together for a deposit, plan funds I need etc. If I have to drop out of uni then so be it, I love it but I have to get away from this fucking manchild that I live with.
Sorry for any mistakes in there, I'm typing in a fit of rage 