I have been properly separated from my husband for about 5 weeks now but in reality it has been since April, it's just he kept me hanging on with false hope and his inability to decide if he wanted to be here or not for that long.
I am devastated, we had been together 16 years, have 2 dd's age 5 and 1. He has moved nearer to his work and only see's the children at the weekend when he comes here and spends time with them in our home.
I am finding it so hard to move forward as I am almost paralysed with fear about where to start. I have been a sahm since dd1 was born so that is worrying me all the time, trying to think through how to go about getting and maintaining a job when I have no support during the week with the children.
Also I am finding him being here at the weekends very difficult, dd1 is always upset when he has to go and he just doesn't ever sympathise with her being upset, he just responds with "well this is how it is now, what can I do?"
I have kept going the last few weeks by just concentrating on getting us through christmas, but then what? I feel the future is very bleak for me and that I have let my girls down, they deserve so much better than this.