When does it get better?

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Posted a few weeks ago on here when dp walked out. We got back together and things were great then last week he walked out again saying he was going because I hadn't found a counsellor for issues I have from my past.
I miss him so much. I can't sleep, can't eat and am really struggling. Keeping a brave face in front of the kids and other people but break down at night. Going docs today to try and get anti depressants.
Please tell me it gets easier

Yes it does. You are doing the right thing seeing your GP and ask if they can refer you for counselling?

It's tiny little steps at the moment, one hour at a time.

You sound like a great brave mum, make sure you take as good care of yourself, you need to eat and rest.

Horrible to feel so unhappy. Your DP coming back would be only part of it, concentrate on yourself, it's the only control you have. Waiting for him to come back will drive you mad. Easier said than done.

Take care.

If it's only been a few weeks, then it is normal to still feel in crisis mode.

His second departure suggests, I'm afraid, that he is not really interested in a proper reconciliation as does his attempt to blame it all on you. Yes, you might have stuff that needs working on, but he isn't supporting you in getting to the point where you are in good enough shape to embark on that. And you haven't said anything to suggest that he is taking equal responsibility in looking hard at what he needs to do.

It's really hard to be knocked back to square one of the hurt. But that does seem to be what has happened. There is no telling how long it will take to recover your strength and rediscover yourself. But recognising that this is what lies ahead of you is the first baby step.

You don't have to make any big decisions whilst in a state akin to shock. You do however need to sort out some of the basics - self care, keeping a roof over your head, thinking about income and assets etc.

Do you have a RL confidante?

I've sorted out finances and he has gone back to his mums. Got a couple of people I can talk to.

Been to the docs and they have referred me for counselling. She was lovely, prescribed anti depressants and told me " the bastard isn't worth your tears!" bit unprofessional maybe but it made me laugh.
Hopefully this cloud will start to lift soon.

I'd be guessing that once you've got that man out of your system you won't need the anti d's either.

Hopefully. I'm prone to depression so they are just playing it safe at the time being I think