Exmill is adorable, if you can think of the most lovely lady and times it by 100 that's her. She's intelligent, caring, loving, sensible (mostly) and just the bestest.
Exbil cunt hardly ever bothers with her unless he's wanting cash. Always been the same. Had thousands off her and late exfil. Exsil is just as bad.
Exdh is more involved although also gets cash from her. He's been looking after her a lot lately as she's been very very ill. Undiagnosed fractured spine on top of leukemia, angina, and other stuff. She's in hospital and has been for over 3 weeks.
Almost 2 weeks ago exdh went off on holiday with his friend. Friend is rich and pays. I have no problems with that, it's always happened. Exdh gives me no maintenance as he's so poor 
yet can always manage to go to football.
What's really angering me is him leaving exMIl. She's almost 90. She's getting weaker by the day, can't eat and keeps throwing up 
I went to see her last week and it was awful.
DS1 (15) is also very angry at his dad. DS2 is very pro dad so doesn't say much but he's worried about his gran too.
I just want to go into the hospital and carry her out and take her home. I doubt I'll be allowed to? She wants to go home. She was moved to a different hospital for respite but it's awful. It's a big ward that's split with screens. Reminds me of a cattle market. She doesn't like it at all.
She's only got her neighbour visiting and the exsil went in but said exmil can't go there as they have visitors going 
She'll not worry about that when the fucking will's read!
I used to tell exmil and exfil years ago to spend their cash on themselves for a change, go on a round the world cruise. Anything but give it to exbil and now exdh.
I wish she'd have gone in a nice private nursing home but she didn't fancy that at all. I can understand it. But she's at the end now and last time I spoke to her wasn't quite so adverse to it.
God I'm angry. I have anxiety to start with and this isn't helping one bit.