Well, I made it through the first year. It's gets easier now, yes?

[RandallPinkFloyd]

H moved out a year ago today. The first year is supposed to be the hardest isn't it?

So that means that from now on it will get easier right?

On one hand I'm really proud of myself but on the other hand seeing families makes me cry.

I don't know, it's just such a weird feeling, thinking that it's been a whole year since my entire life crumbled in front of my eyes.

It feels like it's all gone by in a blur.

I need a good old MN kick up the arse I think. I've had a year to sort myself out, now I need to move on. I just wish I knew how.

Ooh I love an impromptue high five

I do sometimes have a massive howling sob fest little cry to myself but I get a bit too scared to let it all out. Not sure when it would stop.

I've sailed scarily close to PND and PTSD since being pregnant so can't risk letting go iyswim.

My husband left in February and I am still in shock.
I too get upset when I see a family together. Everything seems to relate to a memory...a moment shared.
It hurts when I see my kids so upset because of what he's done and the lies he told them. He still doesn't talk to my youngest daughter (20) who was the apple of his eye. She said yesterday that she is ruined. She has huge trust issues and feels lost. My son (22) " lost " it the other day and ended up at my neighbours door almost in tears.
I am on antidepressants. I have more good days than bad now .

The twunt has started drinking again after 15 years sober...and smoking too. What an idiot! She is welcome to the time bomb for that is what she's got and its ticking.....

We , on the other hand are going to pull out all stops and have a fabulous Christmas and an amazing 2013 and I hope that it will be great for all you ladies out there who have suffered the same.

I'll cheers to that

I'm going to bed now, one sure-fire way to get this crappy day over with is to go to sleep!

Thank you for the support though. I bloody love MN, with all it's faults.
There's no way I'd be where I am now if it wasn't for you lovely vipers

Oh Mrsgorgeous...it is the very worst thing, what they do to their children. My DD wants nothing more to do with him and it has been hard, watching her go through hell. Trust issues I can fully understand with your poor girl. If your father is the first man to break your heart...well it is never a good thing. Give her a hug from a random stranger. Keep having those good days my darling.

High five to y'all.

I agree in spades Randall. I ended up at a suicide clinc last year...support on Mumsnet truly saved me, made me realise that I am not alone, certainly not unique in this situation.

And karma.....oh yes.....but the best revenge is to live well.

Shine, ladies. Dazzle the world into blindness with your sheer brilliance.

Love and understanding, as always.

If you meet an overweight man with a French name on a dating site who works in the film industry, run. He is my worthless ex....