2 years of counselling - it's working

[DowntonAbbess]

Don't want to go into details, but I was really impressed with myself last night. Found out a close friend had been lying to me (again) and let rip. Firstly in the garden, and then down the phone to the friend.

(There's far more to this than the lying, the lies were just the straw that broke the camel's back.)

I know this sounds a bizarre thing to be so happy about, but up to now I would bottle anything like this up and turn the anger in on myself. Last night I found myself pacing the house, kicking the furniture and shouting out loud. I was on my own, so no-one heard other than my 'friend' who refused to listen to more for more than 30 seconds.

I don't know where me and this friend go from here. I think he's finally got the message I'm not happy! But I'm just so chuffed that I was able to let it out.

Oh I don't know, I don't what is appropriate anger and what isn't anymore

I was a little tiny big angry recently, so, not big long sentences just a note as the person who I wanted to see wasn't it. So the note went like this.

Dear perma-tanned person,

I just knocked at your door and you are not in (which is quite good for you if I am honest) and I am angry. I witnessed your child at my car last night so decided to walk the dog and see what was happening, it was dark, and your child ran off....vanished.

I came out today and my car looks like it has been mud-wrestling overnight. I am generally not a fan of going round attacking children and neighbours as I know my children are not angelic and I have no idea what they get up to when out of sight.

However, today this has annoyed me, so we have two options here, you can come and see me and shout and me and I promise to shout a mouthful of abuse back at you, then I will come in and call the police as your children chased my eldest last week so much so that he couldn't even get home (I said nothing -like I say children will be children) but I am midly pissed off today.

OR

You can send you child round after school with some water and he can clean my muddy car.

Thank you, I would have sent you a message via Facebook but have decided to take myself off the 'I like to share every little detail of my life with everyone site.

Regards,

Quiet

(The person you wave at from your car but ignore in street)

See at the time this seemed fine but now I am over-thinking my anger and my sarcasm.