Life is what you make it??

[Notlookinforward]

Dont know where to start. Im a sahm mum with 3dcs 7 3 and 10months. I realy am the end of my tether the baby doesnt sleep he wakes 4 5 6 times a night then regardless of how hes slept hes up and wanting to get up at 530am. Then dd follows at 6 the ds is up at 7. Ive had enough its just the same shit day in day out. I cant face getting out of bed most days. Ive no interest in anything or anyone. The days just mush into one. All i do is school run cleaning and cooking and a food shop once a week. Its really grinding me down. I just want to jump in the car and drive far away. The kids do nothing apart from argue and the baby just clings to my leg crying. I swear thats all i hear arguing mardy kids. Im sorry if my words offend anyone.

Im just fed up of smiling and pretending i love my life. On the surface everythings rosy even dp thinks im fab for doing all what i do and how i cope amazingly. It couldnt be any futher from the truth.

Wft I have a sneaky suspicion that your life is about to get an awful lot better without your "D"P around.....

You've started the ball rolling with your visit to the GP; get yourself off to Sure Start; pack the kids up into their coats and get yourselves off to the park for some fresh air and some exercise (which will help the endorphines to kick in, making you feel a bit better).

Wow. Now we get to the bottom of it. What I was saying earlier about partners supporting each other, that's what they're supposed to do. But you know that really. Even if you were a totally pathetic specimen of a human being, which you certainly don't seem to be, you wouldn't deserve this bad treatment. Stick with Mumsnet, you'll get some great advice on how to manage when the wage-earner huffs off. Lets just hope he stays walked, eh?

Its all starting to sink in and feels real now. In a way im glad hes going im a shadow of what i used to be. I dont deserve this shit and my dcs definatly dont deserve to see their mammy moping about. Im just shitting myself at the thought of being a single mammy with 3dcs but i suppose its better than life at the minute. I hate myself for letting a bloke do this to me.

There are loads of us on these boards who are single parents to dc's. You'll manage - really, you will.

And if it gets too much sometimes, then shout out and you'll get the collective wisdom of MN :)

Thank you. Silly thing is ive done it before with 2dcs. I got with dp when dd was 8weeks old. Its just hes knocked my confidence that i dont believe i can do it again. Tbh its not like were a proper family anyway its me and the dcs doing our thing and hes just there.