I've just split with my boyfriend. I know it's for the best as it was not working due to 'logistics'. The trouble is he said some things when were splitting that have hurt me to the core. A few months ago when we first got together he said he was crazy about me, he would do anything to make it work despite our obstacles, I was the best women we ever met and that he really missed me when we were apart. He was supposed to come and visit this half term and we had plans. We were both so excited and then he fucked up. I don't want to know why. I do know why and it's not another women. I can't talk about it here. But when we split up he said we didn't know each other, I loved him more than he loved me and he 'never said he loved me'. I know he never said he loved me but this is a complete stab in the heart. How can he be crazy about me etc and say this? It's contradictory and quite frankly cruel to say this to someone who is clearly besotted and distressed at splitting up. He didn't have to stick the knife in. I hurt so bad. I am also angry that he sucked me in after me saying that we had to be realistic about the chances of our relationship work despite our passion. We have been talking for months. We talk about everything and our mutual love of literature. We seemed to get on so well. There was a real warmth there. Mabe I don'r 'love' him but god I am crazy about him too even if it's an infatuation.He's the one who insisted we try . aggggrrrr. Can't sleep, chainsmoking, no appetite and holding it togethr for ds. I'm worried that this will tip me over the edge into depression. Kicking myself up the arse so that I don't. My mates are coming over tonight to eat the leg of lamb that I was going to cook for him. thay are going through break ups too so we will call ourselves the heartbreak club.