... I think you've been out of a job for so long you don't remember what it's like.
We've got 3 kids under 5, youngest is 1. Oldest is being assessed - poss. Aspergers / dyspraxia. I've been ill since 1st Feb - influenza, polyarthritis and now mumps. I've had a temp. since then and I've lost over a stone. I feel pants and last wk. was in bed with a temp of almost 106. DH is really busy at work and with his MSc. He thinks I don't appreciate how stretched he is and how hard he tries - which he does and I do appreciateit. Al this time I've been ill he's had only 2 days off - my mum and dad have been here loads. This wk I'm supposed to be taking it easy - he's got today off but not the rest of the wk. He wants me to ask friends to help out. He's off today but made two long calls to work. I feel really low and on top of that his mum's invited herself up next wk to help out. I find her V. stressful to be around - as does he - but he says she must come cos I'm being rude otherwise. I know it's an extra pr. of hands, but it isn't really cos she's not v. useful or practical. He told me today that I'm selfish, self-obssessed, I don;t appreciate how hard he works for us all and because I've been out of work for so long I dno't remember what the pressures are. I do the bills, the mortgage, give him every eve. and parts of the w/e for his MSc, cook every day for him, do his laundry, clean the house, care for the kids. All he has to do is go to work and everything else is taken care of. I feel like since I've been unwell we've become distanced. He's not once come up in the last few days to give me a hug. I know we're both stretched and tired, but I just don't feel supported. He's been snappy and prickly and distant, but denies this ans says I just don't get how hard he's trying. Last night was DS' school parents eve. for new parents of children goingt o mainstream school. IDH rang at 5 to say because he's having today off, he couldn't go - so I went and sat in a freezing hall for over an hour and was the only one whose partner didn't go. Perhaps I am being self-centred and unreasonable, but I just feel about as low, physically , as I can go and I'm starting to feel quite down too.