Abuse as a child

[newbeteacher]

I have never spoken about this to anyone but feel safe doing it on here.

I think I was sexually assaulted when I was about 3 or 4 but I can only remember bits. It has been playing on my mind for years and I have recently got out of an emotionally abusive relationship - which seems to be stirring a lot up again.

All I remember is being with my aunt, a beach, a tent and a man touching me inappropriately. Am I mad or did this really happen? I have asked my parents if they can remember where I was with my aunt at the time but neither can recollect.

Thoughts please would be appreciated xx

Is your aunt still alive?

A conversation along the lines of "do you remember when you took me to the beach? where was that? who came with us?"

a man touching me inappropriately. Am I mad or did this really happen - helping you change a bathing costume? drying you? or properly touching you whilst no one else was watching?

It sounds quite specific to be made up. Sorry you've had this on your mind op, it's horrible. There is a great thread for people who were abused as children, I'm sure they could give you great advice x

Of course it's just about impossible to say for sure whether it happened or not.

But it is very common for abuse to surface in this way in adulthood - through hazy memories. What you might find is that memories start hitting you a bit harder or that you start getting flashbacks.

How are you feeling about it?

Maybe hypnotherapy could help?

Thanks for your posts Robyn the latter one - touching in appropriately when no one else was around. Yes my aunt is still alive.

I will take on all your advice x