This weekend we are going to BIL & family. I find these weekends really difficult. I have no family other than a DS. My parents died realtively young, had an unhappy marriage and family life was quite full of friction. Dh's family are optimists and especially BIL always give the impression that everything is always lovely.
When I first met them I was charmed by all this apparent contentment but now I feel alienated and out of place. As a result I often end up drinking rather too much and wishing I hadn't.
I am just a bit scared about the whole thing.