Not sure how I feel about this...

[MamaGeekChic]

On my own, DD sleeping upstairs and DP is away to his first GA meeting. I'm nervous for him, he looked like a wee boy being sent to his first day of school. I'm vaguely excited, he's been a compulsive gambler for most of the 8yrs we've been together (I'm not sure where the tipping point was). I'm also tearful, sad that this is a part of my/our life. I could cry my heart out for how much pain this addicyion has caused, I'm almost scared to hop that this could be the start of a recovery for him. No idea what I'm looking for, just can't really talk in RL.

So pleased that he's going to GA. That's a big step in its self, as you know.
He may need one to one councelling as well to support him through this.
In some ways this is even more of a test on you. Its bound to be one step forward two steps back in this process.

I hope you get all the support you need as well.

It's a massive step. Any addiction is immensely difficult to deal with for all concerned.

Thanks both, I'm just watching the clock. I don't even really know what happens at the meetings. Just so proud of him for going, esp as he's quite shy, I hope he's ok!

That's a great first step for him and for you, too. Most 'anonymous' fellowships have sister fellowships for family and friends to get support - I would imagine there's one for GA too, and you may find it helpful to talk to others who are in the same position as you.