Posted about this before, but need an outlet again...A week ago my boyfriend of four years texted and said he would not be coming over to see me this weekend. He said he was depressed due to our last weekend together not going too well. I was off with him, I admit. I'm unhappy about the fact he normally doesn't see me more than one day/one night per week, and my unhappiness does cause tension between us.
There are good reasons why we can normally only see each other for this limited amount of time: geography, children etc. However, with a bit of flexibility on his part, we could manage a whole weekend every now and again.
Normally we spend more time together in the holidays when it is easier for both of us in practical terms, but for various reasons we didn't have a holiday together this summer, which I think has left me feeling more needy than usual.
After four years, it goes without saying I feel really connected to him. I'm totally in love with him. His suddenly shutting off all contact is just so unbearably painful, so distressing. I have a box of tissues permanently by my side.
His last text, a week ago, said he needed space. I texted back that that was fine. I couldn't say much else really, he had obviously made his decision. I know I can't text him again, I need to give him the space he says he wants, but I am beside myself with worry. It just feels so odd and wrong, this silence between us...