When DH and are I good, we are very very good, there is a very loving and friendly relationship. This changes however when he drinks, at first he is a happy drunk - the life and soul of the party, at least to all his friends. Then he comes home and on a good night goes straight to bed and wets (occasionally soils) himself. On a bad night he picks arguments, pushes me about, is verbally abusive. Tonight however he went further by hitting me, but just on the arms, and pushed me into doors. Our 2 year old DS was present through it all crying. The thing is whenever he does this I ask him to go and he refuses, point blank refuses to leave. The only reason he left tonight was to go and get more drink.
I have tried to help him through his drink problem, and every time he does this he promises it will be his last. But because he doesnt drink every day he thinks he does not have a drink problem, but he finds it hard to stop when he starts. then with the hangover he drinks to get over it, then as he suffers from anxiety and depression it triggers episodes of this. Our DS saw everything tonight, including me physically forcing DH out front door. I havnt stopped crying since he told me i was naughty for hitting daddy, and crying for his daddy to come back.
We have no spare cash once bills are paid, but a good life together. And I dont want to give this up! But I really do feel at the end of my tether. What should I do? If I do leave (he says its his house and he will never leave it) what rights do I have? What will it do to my son? Has anyone else been through this and got out the other side (by staying or leaving)? Please help me.