Ok I have read about cuckolds.... But not cuckqueans! I have this huuuge fantasy about my man sleeping with another woman. And it's a complete head fuck because as well as massively turning me on, the prospect of it devastates me. I have had this with all boyfriends, told 2 of them about it and they would think up "hypothetical situations" when we were actually having sex and talk me through them doing things with others. Every time I would have the most amazing orgasms.
This only turns me on when I am completely secure with my boyfriend's feelings for me. When I imagine he was actually sleeping with someone else I feel sick. I've been close many times to getting a few of my boyfriends to sleep with someone else, but I still don't fully understand this fantasy and how it can both turn me on but upset me to such extremes. I guess I am just hoping someone can help me really figure out what's going on in my head!