I am very sick of being treat badly, well not all the time. But every week with out fail H gets in a really bad mood and takes it out on me. Its mainly when he's tired but its not fair.
We have been getting on all week, then today when he got in from work, I new he was in a bad mood as his txt wernt the same as usual. Anyway, DS2 (5months) was screaming. I was trying to get on with my jobs as hed been fed and changed. H came in and started shouting because the baby was crying. He picked him up and took him upstairs into his cot and shut door, I had already tried that and I don't like him being left in his cot (just learnt to roll over)
Anyway, I said please don't put him in his cot, I've already tried that. So he said shut up, I then replied don't ever tell me to shut up again, so he said it again and told me to fuck off.
I went downstairs and cooked the dinner (which he didn't even say thanx for) and afterwards done dinner pots.whilst he slept on sofa.
He then said to DS1 (3years) that it was his bath time, DS was playing so he said wait a minute. Which H then started shouting really visciously towards DS. grabbed him and started taking him upstairs. DS was shouting me saying daddies hurting me. So I went to get DS to let H calm down, he shut the stair gate on me, and then pushed me and grabbed DS so I couldn't get him. DS was still shouting mummy. Anyway,m in the end he pushed me and hurt DS's arm.I got him away from H, then H started shouting abuse at me, saying some really nasty stuff, such as 'your really fucking me off, your a fucking bitch, I'm sick of you' and more.
Basically what I'm asking is where can I go. He won't leave, told me that I would have to leave with the kids. I have no money, nothing. I don't want to go to hostel or womens aid. Or anything like that. I have no family or friends who could take us in.
Sorry its long and mistakes, I'm on my phone.