I always say ex-h walked out on us in April as I didn't end the marriage, he did, so I don't think I should take the social blame, but actually he didn't. He decided to beat dd up because she wouldn't brush her teeth, and so dd and I had to move out, get an occupation order, and eventually move back in and he moved out.
I have carried on being me, hardly any of my friends even know that we are separated, it is on a need-to-know basis. He keeps telling me that when I "change my ways" and become a better person he will move back in. I told him to go away.
However, a tiny bit of me is really sad that he has not even bothered to recognise that today would be (or technically still is as we are not divorced) our first wedding anniversary. Have spent all day telling myself I'm not bothered, yet still knocking everything in sight over, dropping everything, accidentally breaking stuff, burning dinner etc. I bloody hate him right now, but don't know how to manage financially in the family home, but he is refusing to sell. I'm really sad, but have no-one to talk to.