hey i have been a long term follower of this forum but havent posted
about two and a half years ago i met a lovely man. sex three times a night, huge attraction.
two weeks ago he left his facebook in and there were messages to him from a girl saying she missed him and her replyed in simliar terms. He explained it but i wasnt sure and got a keylogger program (i am 39 and never did anything like this ever)
anyway got his passwords and have found out out of the blue he has been shagging men on gaydar and squirt. he is on a night shift but admitted it.
gutted as wanted a family and was ttc and its my last few years of being able. also now terrified i need std and have no faith in anything anymore not to have guess. feel sick we had unprotected sex after his had been up a guy...
just feel like it was my last chance at family
have left his stuff that was at mine (three guitars) on the pavement and hope that are taken.
have been cheated on before(another guy not this one) but with a woman and i could kind of get that....
help please