hi everyone this is my first time on here i am a mum with 3 children 9,6 & 3. life is a bit of a mess at the mo, im stupidly pregnant, i say stupid because deep down we both new what we were doing. im in my 30's not 13 theres no excuse. we have been together for 18yrs and still madly in love, so, whats the problem? i hear you ask. well i have a heart condition and on meds (midodrine and ivabride) and pass out a couple of times a wk at my best hubby has bipolar and is not medicated. we are moving house relocating over 100mls away and starting a new business. renting for a year whilst looking for the right house to buy and by "right" i mean half price. as we are broke. if i go ahead with the pregnacy i am risking my own life. due to both our conditions we are not allowed to drive so hospital appointment which with my last 3 were all day every other day from around 4-5 months will be impossible. the children we have also have the heart thing but mild and now so ok that we were just dischared from the hospital (keep an eye on it go back if needed) but still have svt's+ but doing better. we both want this baby but it is so the time, we agonised over taking the morning after pill but just couldnt get it easily (bank holiday wkend, and everywhere was out) which hubby was over the moon about and said it was fate. ive not seen him so excited in ages. i said we could go to hospital but he begged me not too. my Drs are going to kill me. luckely due to a misshap with the pharmacy id been off the ivabridine for about a month b4 so hopefully that will be enough to be out of my system and from conception limited the midodrine to max one 5mg per day from 4 per day. i feel so stressed about this cant sleep at all but with this weird sence of calmness. hubbys bipolar is rapid cycling so maybe this is just a high but its a consistant high