confused

[rainbowdiva]

not sure what i am looking for really, but i am not feeling good today and wish i could get some insight and think clearly.
I ended relationship with P last night and my emotions are all over the place, but mainly i just seem to feel nothing. I cant think clearly at all. My confidence is absolutely shot.
He isnt the father of my child, but has been there for the last 18 months. I split from my childs father after 12 years and was separated 2 years when we met. He was there through my divorce.
I found the feelings of guilt of being with him difficult as my exH seems in such a bad place.
P has depression as he has issues with his ex wife and contact with his son.
I am now suffering and last night he accused me of having bipolar disorder.
I dont, but my confidence and self esteem are very low.
I feel like i have been run down into the ground and just don't know where to go from here :-(

Rainbow, my ex also used to ask me to marry him when I dumped him. I would find out he was cheating, I would become emotional and dump him, he would send me a bouquet of flowers asking me to marry him - I would go back to him (wtf was I thinking!!!). You must see that this is just him trying to regain control (well you do because you've said as much).

rainbowdiva - well done! And yes - CES is right that simply unpleasant traits shouldn't necessarily be given a diagnosis. However, what I wanted you to understand was that there's nothing special about his behaviour - it fits a well-known pattern for that type of personality. Have a look at 'relationship losers' too! Be happy that you have taken a decision that will enable you and your family to move on to a happier future.