i think im properly f*cked up!

[singsingdeathhouse]

I have just had an epiphany of sorts.

I found loads of old messages on Facebook (why does it save them all?). And in my memory I was correct and reasonable, but apparently I was incredibly harsh and mean to most of my boyfriends. Made them think it was their fault and then dumped them over nothing!

I just started doing similar things to my new (one date in) guy. Like telling him he is coming on too strong, whilst simultaneously being mad because he stopped texting me so much...

Is there any hope for me? I cant believe I was so sure all these years I was a lovely girlfriend, when Im just a bitch!

Sounds like you have ishoos with commitment? Dump them before they dump you? Maybe not? But do you have low self esteem? Can't advise, I too can be like this. Although now I am aware of this, I am trying to change!

So you have the proof there in front of you.
You can use this to your advantage to deal with the issues regarding why you do it.

its a proper shock! i always thought i was right..

i posted under a different name a while back and the general replies were that i had low self esteem. i never would have realised this either. I thought quite the opposite.

lop37, any ideas how we can change??

You sound open and willing to analyse which is a real strength in your favor. Hugs

:) thanks. i have no idea where to start though!

Consciously think about your interactions with your boyfriends in future and rate them good or bad. Might not be worth raking over the history too much.