He thinks he wants to leave me, what do I do? Can't deal with it.

[me23]

forgive me if this is all over the place.

ive been with him a year end of this month.

A month or so ago he told me he's not sure how he feels about me and if he loves me enough. Which is itself a problem but he also suffers from anxiety and ocd which means he has thoughts sayinfg he doesnt love me but he not entirely sure if its his ocd making him feel this.

I've begged him to give us a go and see how things turn out in time and if he still really feels strongly about it we can deal with it then.

Yesterday he told me he has had thought of being with someone else and one girl who he met at work he met up with a few weeks ago (i knew he liked her i just felt it when i heard he met this new 'mate' he said it not a deep feeling just he likes her it was like a knife in my heart.

but I know in a relationship after honeymoon period you can begin to think grass is greener I know in previous relationships i have felt this but then stayed with my partner and that phase went and things were good again. I keep trying to convince him that it is normal to feel this and he doesnt have to act on it.

He has agreed to stop contact with this girl and she is a girl 19 he 26, im 24 now.

the fact is everyday my stomach is in knots I feel like i will fall apart if he leaves I don't mean in a normal end of relationship way i eman i feel like i will breakdown and i know i sound pathetic.

thing is when we are together (he lives at his mums i see him about 3 days a week)it so good speanding time together we have a great time and it so speacial thats why i know i have to save this relationship but i dont know how.

please help sorry for long post

hi, I couldn't get online yesterday, btw I didn't mean to put down mums in their 30's! just that I felt left out you know!

I also need a break from dd for nine months I havent had any time to myself and it's taking its toll. my boyf mum might be babysitting for us in a few weeks it is our 1 year aniversary, me and him have never been out together so think that will be good.

think I'd have to chat on here quite a bit more before I'd have the guts to go to a meet up, I'm too insecure at the moment I wouldn't be able to make conversation. I'm quite shy normally anyway so you can imagine!

I am going to make an appointment with doc because I think I have pnd/depression, dd stresses me out and when she moans or cries my body goes all tense and feels like my hearts ripping I can't stand it.

and another thing to add to the drama I'm one day late! I keep feeling like I'm going to come on and I am ultra emotional.

Oh Me23 no wonder you are feeling under pressure if you haven't been out since your baby was born! Sure it will do you the world of good to go out for your anniversary dinner.
If it works out with your boyf's mum babysitting, try and see if she can do it more regularly.
Good idea to see doctor about pnd too.
And really hoping you come on soon, I know that can be really worrying
Keep us updated, really thinking of you...
xx

thanks bluejelly, i think going out will help too. i cant wait.
i did a preg test today it was neg. but i have a feeling i still might be preg.
ill keep you updated.

Glad the test was negative, hope you come on today!