Hi
I'm looking for some insight on my situation. I've been married 5 yrs & have a 3 yr old and 6 mth old. I luv my husband and always believed that he luved me too and would never do anything to hurt me (but I guess we all think that in relationships, right?). Recently, I discovered old emails from when I was pregnant with my first between my husband & a girl whom we had met thru a mutual friend's wedding - he was the best man & she in the bridal party. The emails span a 2 mth period after the wedding in which my husband is telling her how sweet & awesome she is. Theres also talk about meeting up for lunch and indications that there were late night conversations. Looking back this is around the time he started choosing to sleep on couch saying it was too hot in our bedroom (which it actually is but He never did this before) There's not much more revealed in the emails but it was the eyeopener to me realizing that they were talking and seeing each other behind my back and I had absolutely no clue. Oh and also I kind of figured out that he got a new cellphone when the emails stopped so i think thats how the continued communicating, although he told me they just talked for a couple mths and then stopped??? What's killing me is that this happened so long ago so I'm not sure how to ever find out the real story of what happened between them. I confronted him and he admitted it was wrong to keep it from me but swears on our kids he's never cheated on me. I do kind of believe him but think maybe this was more of an emotional affair. I know that they are still friends now but she's married and recently had a kid so I'm not sure what the relationship between them is now. So I don't know if he cheated but I've been extremely upset about this cause it now has me questioning my entire relationship and what other lies he's been telling me. I've been trying to "pay attention" more to his words and actions but he uses a work phone which is password protected (so i cant "check up" on him) and he travels for work so it's hard to establish a normal routine for him or keep track of if he's really where he says he is. Am I just being super paranoid about nothing or is this the gut instinct that maybe I haven't been paying attention to in the past???