had a bad 3 yrs to put it mildly. divorce after being with exH over 10 yrs, met and split with new P who was abusive and had unplanned pregnancy with him and then mc.
i went away with my ds this weekend and i felt so utterly alone. i struggled to cope with him at times, keep him entertained etc. I got lost and it took us 5 hours to get to our destination, which should have taken 3.5 hours. i hear from no-one all weekend.. at all. no-one to say have i arrived ok etc.. my parents divorced when i was a teenager. My mother is toxic and everything is about her. when i was away, well this morning, i was utterly ill. i just didnt know what to do and i had to look after my son aswell in the hotel room. i managed and we got home ok. but when i was ill, i didnt feel i could call either of my parents. i cannot turn to my mother at all, she stresses me out. both of my parents only text me. they never call. i speak to my dad more than my mum. since my son has been born i can count on one hand how many times i have been out with my mum and son. despite her living around the corner. we got back, she did text (i am sick of texts, why can she not call me, show me any sort of concern?) my son was out playing in the front garden. She sent me a text saying she would come and get him to give me a break.. ok so i feel i need it. she came to the front garden, didnt come in, didnt ask how i was, did we have a nice time, in fact didnt even look at me, just went off with my son and said "see you later" :-( i feel i have no-one to turn to. i feel trapped. when i was away it was the free-est i have felt. i feel more in company with complete strangers. i feel like dissapearing, she is only interested in my son, not me. i am not allowed an opinion, i am not allowed to disagree with her. i just want out of my life. has anyone else moved away as a single parent and started again? i just want to let go. i am surviving as a single parent, i have no life and others are busy with theirs. i am a friendly person, i am just totally demoralised. i am crying. i do not understand why i only get texts from my own family, i feel utterly invisible. sorry for going on, i just feel so alone