Been in a string of crap 'make do' relationships since the age of 16. Never loved anyone. Never knew what it was to love anyone. Thought it was all a bit of a myth.
Then my last "relationship" broke up a year and a half ago and I spent time by myself, went back to college, made new friends, took up horseriding and art and rediscovered myself.
Then about 2 months ago I met a man. First day I got talking to him I just wanted to be physically near him. It was a weird sensation. I felt warm just been near him. We went on a few dates and it was always touchy feely, touching of the arms, brushing up etc I'm NEVER usually like that.
First time we kissed I felt like I was melting into him. To cut out the rest of the sop = I feel warm and 'safe' whenever I'm with him. I think about him constantly. Never felt like this about anyone - it's almost physical. I can't explain it.
Is this love then?? or just a bit of lust?