Just posting to try and figure out/get some opinions on what it is that will help me most - I can't see the wood for the trees. (Drip feeding inevitable I'm afraid.)
DS is 14mo, DH and I have been together for 9yrs, married for 2. We've had our problems, but have been pretty good for the last 5 years or so.
Lately we've been rowing a lot over petty issues like housework, who's the most tired etc.
I don't feel much for him right now, but have always struggled to feel much about anything tbh, I always thought I was just a cold fish. Was discussing this with my sister this week, and she says it's a classic sign of depression. I've always been a depressive type, dealt with it myself as childhood doc didn't believe in meds, usually manage to fake chirpiness long enough to pull myself out of a rut. She's insisted I see a doc to talk about it, so I've booked an apt for Friday, but I'm just not sure that depression is the problem?
DH is a wonderful man, and a fab father, but we're not making each other happy at the moment, we haven't had sex since I was 3/4 months pregnant, and I feel more like we're affectionate housemates. We've never had a great sex life as DH isn't massively interested, and I'm not usually bothered by it, but it just seems to be a massive red flag that we're not 'right'. He gets wound up by the smallest thing, and is constantly negative about everything I suggest/do.
Tbf to him, the house is a state, full of crap we don't use or need, and it's mostly mine, but I've struggled to get the place sorted and we moved in 18 months ago.
Gah - run out of time - my Internet turns off at Midnight (a la Cinderella!) so apologies for posting and running, I'll be back in the morning!