Sorry its more of am essay....
I was with my ex for 15 months on and off. During that time he has never really committed to me in anyway.
First few months were great, went out lots and had fun but things started to go down hill pretty quickly.
He started cancelling every other date we had, reasons varied from he was tired, had a bad day and wouldn't be good company, had to have his daughter for a week as his ex was poorly, his dad (who lived with him through illness) was poorly and he couldn't leave him. After a few cancellations I ended things but he managed to convince me to meet up and talk he told me some really personal stuff about his life and why he kept cancelling. I agreed to be more understanding and let things go.
He began cancelling more and more but I let things go because I believed him when he said he loved me.
I was very insecure with myself and him. I had it in my head he care