I am very tired so bear with me! Have three year old ds and three week old ds. Pregnancy very hard but birth a good if painful experience.
Baby has jaundice and colic and breastfeeding a struggle as he does not latch well.
Ds1 had for the most part been brilliant but is a liitle sensitive and wants my attention but ds2 mordant or less always feeding so this is hard.
Anyhow dh has been doing a cot with ds1 and the housework. He works part time.
But he really not doing anything much with ds2. Has played guitar to him a few times. I have asked him to try bottle feed once a day but he is never prepared, I have to chivvy him and am then accused of nagging.
The first week following birth was super hard as my brother was visiting and dh hates him so he gave me cold shoulder.
Last night after thirty Dix hrs with no decent sleepbi was in no mood for nit picking and he had a go as had not fed ds1 an apple or put something away.
I lost iit with him and started listing his faults, not good idea when this tired.
So now I am getting cold shoulder again.
I feel like I have three children.
I try talking to him but he says the more I go on the less inclined he is to a
Ter.
He gsdno idea how knackered I am, last night he said I agreed to do nights. I dud bcos I was desperate for another baby but he cld at least be sympathetic!
I don't know what I am asking for here. Maybe I just need to write it down. He is great with ds1 but he is so childish emotionally it exhausts me.
He cannot stand anger so it's hard fir me to voice things with him.
He has never been able to see that his being distant is tantamount to emotional abuse. Or that his criticisms make me feel unappreciated.
He says I make myself feel whatever I feel!
Anyhow glad I've gotten it off my chest.
I tried to be understanding and said go to his mums if he needs space but he just said who wld out out the bins!