I just want to talk to. We are struggling

[pud1]

i have been with my dp for 16 years and we have 2 Dds aged 2 and 4 who are lovely but hard work. I am a Sahm and dp has got stressful job. All this is effecting our relationship. Neither of us are happy but still love each other. I feel like I have the weight of the world on my shoulders and he left with very little patience after the stress of his job. We are very close to splitting up. I feel like I am trapped. I can't face the idea of going it alone but don't want to carry on the way we are. I am thinking that I need to go to the doctors To see if he can give me something to relax. We are talking through our problems but I don't see how we can change things. I feel like I am living in a big dirty black hole.

I am going to do some voluntary work this week and have a meeting regarding funding for a potential job. Whilst we really need me to go back to work, this is for me as it wont have immediate financial reward.

Lurking for ideas for things to do. I want to do stuff with him at weekends etc; I can't see the point in doing even less together! But he won't agree to do a lot of the things I want to do as he spends too long every week commuting so won't drive, won't travel, won't spend any money. I want to do something that we can form some kind of connection over, not spend more time apart on. Maybe I should start my own business or do my PhD part-time as well as work. At least then I'd have no time to feel crap as i drop dead from exhaustion

mashie - please pm me or chitchat

Has anyone told pud where we've gone?
PM one of us pud this is all for you too.

Any chance I could join you please? I feel so in the same boat as you all. Been with DH 16 yrs, 2 DC's, sahm, feeling trapped, miserable and on the verge of splitting up. Still love DH but got this churned up feeling that I want out :(

Have PMed Pud and Needacrystalball