I need some help please!
7 weeks after my husband left I was chatting to a local policeman on facebook. He had no idea of who I was just through my profile as they were pre pregnancy weight. He is stupidly good looking. He has a girlfriend but was flirting and I liked the attention.
My head was all over the place I had 0 confidence and I was overweight but my pics didnt show this.
One evening he came over and I know he must of been disappointed but we spent hours together, even though I knew it was just one thing he wanted I allowed him to come over. I didnt sleep with him.
The next day on fb he was lovely and said he would visit me for coffee, that day never came.
For some stupid reason this cut me up, more than anything. Id known him through chat for 2 weeks and met him once. To me it was the attention of someone so good looking and being a police officer.
For 6 months he kept me sweet on fb pretending he was interested in my life as Id just started college, sepatated etc. I asked him to have coffe just to be friends, he wouldnt.
Then he changed his mobile, then within a year he disappeared of fb.
In this space of time I lost 5 stone, have seen him and he has waved, pulled over one day and just said you look slimmer. He was still keeping me sweet as I know he was so paronoid I would tell his gf.
I have probably seen him 4 times since he came off fb, 10 months ago. The last 2 times he has looked the other way and completely blanked me, I know he knows it was me. Im not ugly, I look after myself, ok when I met him I was 5 stone over weight but Im not now.
Why does he make me feel this way? He ignored me this morning, its like he wants me to be a very distant memory. I havnt done anything wrong and he was attracted to me once. I know he has a girlfriend and I know he doesnt want me but how do I get over him. I dont want to feel like this when I see him.
I have dated guys but I can never ever stop thinking about him.
Please dont think Im nuts, I just need some help here :(