..to help myself.
Finally built up the courage to call it a day with my childrens dad. I have been feeling miserable and lonely for weeks. Someone hold my hand and tell me it will be ok :(
My head feels clearer than it has for months today, like a switch has been turnt on in my head. I cant deal with the drunken antics every weekend, the constant arguements.
Yet i still feel so guilty that my children will never have a 'normal' family again. Life is hard!