About a month ago I posted about the situation between myself and my husband.
www.mumsnet.com/Talk/relationships/1468345-I-nearly-did-something-really-stupid-part-of-me-wishes-I-had
Reading back through that thread I feel like such a complete idiot. I genuinely felt that we could get over his infidelity and make our marriage work. Hmmm, how stupid was I?!
On Monday night my youngest DS was very upset. He eventually told me that he'd seen some messages on husband's phone. So later on I asked H if I could look at his phone. He got very defensive "what do you want to see it for" "you've got no reason to look at my phone" etc. I reminded him about the agreement after last time that I could have free access to e-mails, texts etc and did he have something to hide (or course by this time I knew full well that he did). Eventually handed over his phone and lo and behold there are pages and pages (about 40 in total) of messages between him and some random woman he's been playing online fucking scrabble with! All talking about "kissing beautiful breasts" and "getting hard just thinking about you" etc etc. I know they've not met in real life but for me that's almost irrelevant. Surely this is not the behaviour of a man trying to repair his marriage?
So I've now done what I should have done in Feb - I've told him that we no longer have a relationship, that I want him to leave and that i'll be starting divorce proceedings ASAP.
Feel stupid and sad and well, like nothing really.