Sorry to post about this, I really wish I wasn't in this situation and I don't like to ask for help but I can't get through to anyone on helplines and so on, and thought people might know a few things.
I've posted a few weeks ago about my partner, who is very overemotional and has also been getting drunk a lot recently.
Things have got worse since I last posted. Basically I really went off him when he kept calling me, after drinking a great deal and telling me that he loved me again and again but also sounding pretty sinister and accusatory about the fact I had missed some of his texts (had left phone in the car by mistake).
So I began not to want to answer the phone to him, because I felt like it had become the equivalent of an electronic tag and I didn't know what his reaction would be if I missed a text again...so I asked him not to text so often as I am pregnant and very tired, and he tried to comply, I even told him his behaviour had made me very upset and I felt under pressure to say I loved him all the time, and he needed constant reassurance, and I couldn't stand it.
He cooled off a bit but not properly - he started texting just about three times a day, I didn't always answer, I have been feeling rough and sleeping a lot during the day this last week and so I was feeling a bit more relaxed, and able to just sleep and text him later on.
But he kept on about how much he missed me and how upset he is, and he worries about me all the time, and didn't really get it.
Anyway he had promised me over and over that he would never call me again when he was drunk. He stuck to it for about a week - maybe two, I missed a couple of calls one night - and was determined to do what I needed him to do. He kept saying he was on my side and going to be what I needed him to be, and not bother me etc etc.
Anyway last week he was here on Tuesday, we had a long talk, lay on my bed for an hour just relaxing and talking and cuddling/ He did ask to stay over, I said no I needed to sleep, he asked again later, anyway eventually he went home seeming to be reassured.
Friday he asked when he coul see me again, I said call in after work, to get it over with, so he did, and got very emotional again and kept staring at me which I really hate, and he knows this. I asked him to stop, he refused saying he loves me and can't help it. I was feeling awful and he left after about 45 minutes of awkwardness. I said I wished I was not pg (soooo tired and feeling ill) and he almost cried, saying 'I'm so sorry, you have regrets, I'm sorry, I am such an idiot, at least I understand now' which I didn't really get, but anyway - more texts followed, he was just being very maudlin and miserable.
Saturday we didn't really talk much, one or two texts. He wrote two to say goodnight, I was asleep by then, another on sunday morning to which I answered I hope he has a good day : ) and then we went out for the day (just me and my children). I didn't know what he was up to, didn't feel like going out but we had arranged to go to something and I felt we couldn't get out of it.
Anyway I turned off my mobile, looked at it at lunchtime and he had written, the only good day I will have is with you. Then another saying he knew I didn't want to hear that but it is true.
I ignored these. He texted again at about 4pm, twice - was I home etc - I got back at 4.15 and found a load of shopping on the doorstep. We didn't need it, there was a note, he had obviously decided to turn up in an effort to see me.
I texted thanks but there was no need, it was a kind thought though.
He rang me then and was obviously really drunk. He was sullen and barely spoke, obviously angry that we had not been around. I asked if he was drunk - same as last time, he denied it over and over, till I said he sounded like he had had more than a couple, and he finally admitted it at which point I put the phone down.
I then texted to say please don't call me till tomorrow as you are really upsetting me, he replied Ok x x and then thankyou, good night (it was 5pm) I think he went to sleep.
I had a normal text this morning, hello darling hope you have a good day, and then turned off my phone as I couldn't handle an argument.
he hasn;t called the landline and I am afraid to turn on my mobile as I know there will be angry messages.
I am considering having an abortion now - I am 9 weeks 
Everyone knows about the baby and the children are excited. I hate the idea of a termination, but am afraid of being stuck with an alcoholic idiot for ever. I have finished the relationship in my head but am scared to tell him - though he knew if the drunk phone call thing happened again it would be over, I don't think he took it seriously.
I don't know him that well. He is unstable imo and I am also thinking about having the child adopted. but I don't know what my rights are.
can anyone help please?