I'm not entirely sure where to start and please excuse any typos because I'm on my iPhone, but I'm sitting here with tears rolling down my face and my DH is away so I need a bit of a cuddle so I thought I'd have a little chat of anyone is still up?
I've had years of issues with my mum. I've never felt loved by her and always felt second or third best to my sisters. She's even let me know that she didn't feel any connection with me until I was in my mid 20s and she really has said some very very hurtful things to me over the years.
Long story short - I said to her today that I felt she needed to speak to a counsellor or therapist because she seemed to hold a lot of resentment from her childhood and I thought it would help her to speak to someone. So when I suggested today that she speak to someone about how she felt she said that maybe that was a good idea as he had lots of regrets, including how she brought up her own children and she had a lot of guilt. I brushed it off because I didn't feel capable of dealing with it at the time but it's the closest Mum has ever come to apologising for or even acknowledging (what I consider to be) my rubbish childhood. And a couple of hours later, now when I'm on my own and have a chance to let that throw-away comment sink in, I'm feeling quite sad and emotional and I thought I'd see if anyone was awake for some hand holding