I have read hundreds of threads on MN and have been amused, depressed, educated etc. The full gamut of human emotions and behaviours is here. I now can't wait to be living on my own. I no longer want to be in a relationship and that particular Epiphany has been truly liberating. I no longer want to live with a child teenager who, no matter what cannot ask me what is possible but who just demands whatever she wants. She cannot have it all of course and I say so, daily. I am sick of discussion, of talking, of compromise, of explaining.
I do not have any family who can help and friends have their own families. Self reliance for ever and ever. No more coming home to a month's worth of dirty clothes dumped on the kitchen table (for me to return to her bedroom until the items are sorted and put in the laundry basket). No more, 'My ....... will cost £X,' rather than any kind of discussion about what might be possible.
I just want to live alone. I just want to be left alone. I do not want to come home and find the furniture rearranged without prior notice. I have set out what I will fund for university but felt it necessary to renege on the mobile contract because it is not respected and the limit is exceeded.
No more asking anyone else for help (courses in DIY and car maintenance coming up), bar the NHS if I am ill (and I do not plan to be)
Family life has been hugely draining all of my life - my parents sucked the joy out of me like Dementors.They are both gone now and the main feeling has been one of relief. I am clearly not good wife/companion/mate material so the two guys to whom I have been married both went off and found other women very quickly.
I wish I had realised many, many years ago that I should have been a loner all my life. Now I can be. What a feeling of contentment that brings.
As you were. Not looking for any sympathy or advice at all.