Dh walked out last night when he was supposed to be giving ds his bath. DIdn't say anything to me, he was getting stressed with ds so I said I would do the bath, could he get the washing in, then just heard him driving away. Shouted as I thought he'd taken pushchair etc in the boot and he ignored me.
Not heard anything from him today - his day off, usually he comes over the night before and spends time with ds. We were planning a bbq.
We are separated but trying to work it out. ANd frankly I am at the end of my tether. We don't have a lot of support so when dh had a breakdown last autumn I had to put ds first and concentrate on looking after him if dh wasn't able. I also hoped by asking him to leave it would give him and his gp a jolt to actually organise counselling and stop fannying about. He is seeing a counsellor now.
ALso I have my own problems - pnd etc and ds has never slept through not even close (2 years).
Dh's behaviour was getting really shitty and was affecting me and sadly ds. Sometimes he tells me he's been an arsehole, he'll do anything to get his family back. Other times he tells me he prefers living on his own.
I don't have the eneergy to waste getting upset when he lets me down, get's angry over small things etc etc.
I am giving up on our relationship tbh but thing is he has a history of suicide attempts (as a teen). He's started self harming again recently and has had several episodes saying he has constant thoughts of killing himself. Thinks ds hates him (not true) and would be better off without him. He was abused and neglected as a child and has recently been piecing together what happened to him. So what if he has done something... and I didn't try to contact him?
Texting not an option (no signal round here).