I am happily married, have one dd, 14 and things are fine at home. However in 2010 I started studying at a local college to gain better qualifications to get a better job etc.
Within a few weeks of the course starting I started to develop feelings for my tutor which I thought were just a silly crush as he was really helpful, kind and considerate and really knows his onions about the subject I am learning. He is married, slightly younger than me and european. Over the last 12 months tho, the feelings have changed from being just a crush to being quite obsessed with him.
At the moment, all i think about is HIM, i keep asking him questions via email just so I can see his name come up in my inbox. I took a picture of him on my phone and must look at it every ten minutes during the day. Recently I approached a company near his home (ten minutes near) for a job and was offered it which starts in September.
He has no idea (I hope), but it is taking over my life. I can barely concentrate on the course anymore because he is in my mind all the time.
I know it is a crush but really feel I am in danger of making a fool of myself should i have a mad moment and tell him, or say something really stupid like "i fancy you".
Some days I just cry because the feelings have become so intense and i hate it.
How do i get over a crush? I am desperate and my husband would be shocked if he knew how i felt. :(