I have posted about my dh a few times now (under different names) and it is very apparent that he is abusive and every response i get says leave the bastard.
So what am i still doing here?
He really needs to be gone this time, i guess i'm scared and not sure who or where to turn to.
Last night he hit me (properly hit me) for the first time. Before that its just been pushing or pinning me down by my throat but this time he proper punched me in the head, and pinned me down by my throat so i couldn't breathe 
This was over nothing. Well i say nothing. He wanted sex, i wasn't feeling in the mood. I have been on a diet and was on a bit of a downer that i had put on this week, feeling a bit sorry for myself and lost a bit of confidence as you do. I told him this and his response was to get angry with me, tell me i'm being stupid and hormonal and that he's had enough of hearing this from me (to which he backtracked later and said he didn't know what to say because i'm never like that!). Obviously i got upset, i was sobbing and he just kept being horrible to me. Said he didn't know what i was moaning about as i'm fine and he was more worried about how i was making him feel and that i was annoying him
I moved to the end of the bed (it was late, about 1am) to get some sleep and he came over and started shouting at me, right in my face. I told him to get out and then kicked him away from me as i didn't want him anywhere near me. Well he went mad, I've honestly never seen him like that ever. He pinned me down and wouldn't let go even though i was screaming and trying to fight him off me. If it makes it worse our 3 month old dd is in the room with us.
When he lets go i get up and go to the bathroom to calm down. Come back in and he's slagging me of left, right and centre. I didn't want him to see he had hurt me as i've tried that in the past and he doesn't care, if anything he thrives off it so i tried to be strong and act like it wasn't affecting me. Wrong move, obviously said something he didn't like and he flew at me. Pulled me onto the bed, dragged me by my hair and pushedme around. I got back up and said something else, he then flew at me again and thats when he punched me. Full on, and boy did it hurt. I got back up, just looked at him and laughed, he went for me again and this time i ran into the bathroom, locked the door and thats where i stayed.
Have had it all today, loads of texts about how sorry he is but mostly about how i made HIM feel :(
I need to leave him, i hate his guts. I really need help.
Sorry its long.