I was in an abusive relationship for 6 years and have 2 children with him. I tried to leave many times but he always threatened to take them off me and I was told by 2 (so-called) professionals, he would get custody because he has a large family and I don't.
His family are actually abusive too but like him, put on a great front to people so everyone thinks they are lovely. They controlled everything and my ex actively encouraged it.
He managed to convince everyone it was me at fault, claimed i had mental health problems, phoned the police to say i was suicidal when i had just gone out. He has done so many things but i've recently discovered he was slagging me off to everyone all this time. Its no wonder they think its all my fault. He used to tell me he was asking hisfamily why they didn't like me and trying to make it better, but instead he was making things up about me. I don't even know if they did like me or not.
I barely know who i am anymore.
In order to really get away from him i'm having to take help from my mother and sister. My mother still lives with my father who sexually abused me as a child. She Both my mother and sister are supporting him, have always hated me and were well aware of the abuse but did nothing. They have done so many awful things.
I feel trapped. I need to get out of this house i shared with my ex. I need to move on and get stronger again but taking help from my mother when i just want to scream at her is so hard.
I have so much to do, sort, organise. So many phone calls to make,but my youngest is 8 months and not a good sleeper. Its hard enough getting 3 meals, dogs walked etc done everyday without everything else.
I'm really falling apart under all of this but have nobody to turn to.
My 4 yr old needs me to be strong but i can't be all the time. I cried in front of him again earlier. We talked about feelings and things and he seemed ok but i don't want to be like that.
There is no purposeto thisexcept moaning really. Its just all too much :(