Hi, I've name changed for this, not sure why. I don't really know what im hoping for, other than to get this out as it's eating me up.
When I was a teenager I was badly bullied at school. I was beaten up badly on several occasions, by boys and girls and often humiliated and picked on. But the worst of it was the group of boys who forced me to perform sexual acts with them and on them. This went on for several years and was lead by one boy in particular who was particularly sadistic. All my dealings with him as a teen told me he was evil. He loved humiliating me and was a very violent, very unremorseful teenager.
I eventually moved to another school to do my GCSEs and left that whole period of my life behind, though it obviously has and does affect many aspects of my life to this day.
About 5 years ago I bumped into him and he acted as if we were old friends. I told him that he and his friends had ruined my teenage years and he seemed genuinely surprised, but didn't apologise in any way.
I am now married, with children and living a (mostly) wholesome and nice life. Yesterday I was collecting my child from school and walking across the playground came the guy from my past. My blood ran cold and I felt sick. It turns out that he is the father of a child in Reception now. I see the mum all the time but he has never shown up before.
I'm horrified that he's intruded into my nice, safe life. I know that until at least 2 years ago he was a successful (ha!) coke dealer, so I doubt he's a reformed character.
I don't know whether to tell my friends at school as I don't want to tarnish the mum with his awful past, she might be as much a victim of him as I was. On the other hand, if he's still the criminal I knew him as, I wouldn't want my child visiting his home.
I'm obsessing about this all now, it took me hours to get to sleep last night. I feel like he's sullied my safe, pleasant life again.
I hate him.