About a year ago I told my husband I didnt love him and he accepted and moved out.
We were together 10 years and have 3 children.
I suffered terrible pnd and put on s much weight, didnt want to see anyone or do anything I felt so ugly and worthless.
He wasnt very supportive of this and I believe it must of been horrible for him to come home to.
We didnt talk or go out together and after our 3rd child slept in different rooms.
We both gave up. Many times I would say lets try please but still nothing.
Anyway after about 3 and a half years of not having sex together I said we both deserve to be happy. I couldnt love him how I should of and he seserved to be loved, I didnt want to change him this is who he was. Hes not a very emotional person and doesnt have much to say. He would rather please others than me.
He met a lady a few years older than him and moved in within 2 months of leaving.
I was fine with this and happy for him. I never cryed I just focused on me and the kids. I lost 5 stone and become a different person.
Now I look back and I see it was the depression and my marriage weighing me down but now I feel I gave up too easy but then I wonder would I be the person I am now if he hadnt left?
I asked him to come home about 3 months ago I said we can move start again and explained I was probably a rubbish wife but I was ill. Im different now.
He wont come home he said I made the decision and thats that.
Why would he come home though right this woman has money, we never had any. She lives in a big house her kids are grown so no stress as ours never slept.
He bought a new car and went on hol to egypt within the first 6 months. We never had a hol.
He blames me. If he truly loved me he would of fought for our marriage right?
Am I to blame?
In my heart I wanted him to be happy and he is. He has forgotten about his parental responsibilities.
There is so much more to tell but dont want to go on too much.