Don't want this anymore

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We have been together 9 years and are ttc our first baby.

There has been an incident this afternoon although it is more a culmination of things but it's made me realise I have come to despise the person he is.

I have no clue what to do now

What do you want the end result to be?

I'm so upset I didn't even think to namechange.

I see people all around me moving forwards with their lives, getting engaged, married, buying a house, having kids and we have been together 9 years and I have nothing to show for it but a broken heart.

I'm in pieces.

Oh love .

What has he done?

And forget other people. They have a ring and a child but they might not be happy.

It's just loads of little things really. They seem small in comparison to some of the problems I read about on here.

Yesterday for example he was making fun of me because I have stretch marks on my hips. I have lost a huge amount of weight in the last year (around 2 stone) but he was laughing at me saying 'how come you have stretch marks? you haven't even had any babies yet' and went on and on until I ran upstairs crying.

He did apologise but it seems to be one thing after another and I'm wondering if it's all worth it.

It isn't worth it. Being with someone should bring you joy, not tears .

You are looking at it the wrong way round.

It's FANTASTIC that you've realised that he's vile before you've had children with him.

Read the threads on here, where women are stuck with despicable men because of their children. You're free from that. You can dump this fool and get yourself ready to start again.

You should actually be happy you don't have a child with this man.
At least you can leave and never have to deal with him again.

As fab said, forget about other people. Each person has its own history. No point in having children or getting a partner if it's not the right time or the right person.

What you have to show for 9 years is a phD in plonkers. You are now a fully fledged expert without the baggage. Crack open a bottle and celebrate, when he asks why say......work it out!!!

I agree with the rest.
Go and never look back!
You're lucky you don't have kids with an arsehole like that!
You deserve better!