He is 31 years old and right now is like a zombie in the sitting room, it is so depressing. There are lots of other issues in the relationship, but I don't want to accept illegal drugs in the house and he is not willing to stop, he has told me, so sometimes I think about just turning an blind eye for the sake of my daughter (nearly 5) to have the family together, but in the other hand I don't want her to be brought up around this. Anyway, even if I get divorce and he has her for the weekend he might smoke with her in his place and I won't be there so I don't really know what is worse and what to do.
I just wish he would die. Seriously. I know it sounds awful and says a lot about how bad I probably am, but I don't want even have to deal wit him as an ex so death seems like the right solution.
Out of my chest now, this has been in my mind for a long time. 1st time talking about it. I must be dreadful but is the truth.