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dating after D.V

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emptycloud · 14/02/2012 23:42

i'm having trouble with the thought of dating again, i was with my ex 9 years and he was evil to the core, emotionally, sexually and physically abusive and it's taken alot to get this far, its 18months since we split and i'm starting to think about dating but im finding it hard.

i like the idea of a relationship but im scared of finding myself under control or even me being nasty because i do feel quite angry at times towards men. i was tempted on some sort of casual relationship maybe but again im nervous... i worry i'm going to be single forever :(

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ValarMorghulis · 14/02/2012 23:45

You wont be single forever unless that is what you choose.

Don't put pressure on yourself to find a partner. Why not join a chat site/forum where you can interact with men with the safety of anonymity. regain some inner confidence in your ability to trust.

Who knows, you may well meet someone there. But definitely don't push yourself to move faster than you are ready.

BackPackBackPack · 15/02/2012 00:44

I was in a DV (sexually, financial, emotional and physical) from ages 17-21. I ended up having a child removed as I thought it was normal I was brought up in a dv relationship with my mum

When my ex and I split up I went online and started talking to men, I went online straight after which was far to soon I obviously never met anyone until I met my now DP it was when I was not looking for someone as I was getting help for my self esteem and problems.

It took a while to trust my DP and we did have some problems at the start with my trust issues. We have worked through them and now he is my full time carer and we have a 3 year old DD. We have been together 4years.

I found take taking your time and finding the right person who understands your past it made the relationship stronger.

I still do hate my DP getting angry incase he hits me but I know deep down he wont ever hit me but its still there iykwim.

I still very very angry towards men and there is sometimes I look at my DP and think horrible thoughts and think he can do everything my ex did to me, even though deep down I know he wont.

You wont be single forever unless you choose that. I hope you find happiness soon :)

BertieBotts · 15/02/2012 01:02

Have you had any specialist counselling following the abusive relationship? Have you looked into the freedom programme, perhaps?

I think that it is well worth doing these things both to debrief your experience in the relationship, and perhaps address any previous messages or beliefs you held about relationships or yourself which allowed the early signs of abuse to go unnoticed. Please note I am NOT saying the abuse was your fault or that there is any reason he picked you, because abuse can happen to anyone, but sometimes there are factors in our past which can leave us more open to abuse, and it just makes us stronger and more empowered to know that we have dealt with those issues.

I have been in a relationship for coming up to 16 months now and struggling a bit, if I'm honest, not because my partner is abusive because he is not, he is probably the opposite in every way, encourages me to follow my own dreams and life path, gentle, kind, thoughtful, has never pressured or coerced me into anything, etc. But I still find it hard to have a normal relationship with him without being on my guard, worrying that something he said or did has a hidden meaning which I was supposed to "get" and he's going to be annoyed, worrying if he is ever in a bad mood that it's my fault, etc etc. I thought that I'd dealt with all my issues, but clearly I have not. And plus, I've been lucky, I recognise - he has been such a breath of fresh air compared to how XP was that I could have ended up with anyone Shock and been grateful to them for being less awful than he was, which is not right. I'm looking into counselling now, which I hope will help with these issues, and I really wish that I'd done it before I had ever got into a relationship. I think that we tend to excuse our own experience and try to play down the damage that has been caused to us in order to convince ourselves that it wasn't that bad - but look at me, I'm 2.5 years on from the time I first realised I needed to leave and just over 2 years on from the time I did leave, and I'm just discovering some major issues coming seriously to the surface now.

I think that it would be really valuable, now you've come out of the initial shock period, the living day to day and re-learning how to live without control, to spend some time just focusing on you and what you want, rather than worrying about being single forever - if you can make your life as fulfilling as it can be, deal with any issues, work on your own insecurities etc, then anyone who comes along will have to be pretty damn special to disrupt that, and that's what you want. You want to be happy by yourself, and a relationship to be a bonus.

One site I've found really helpful and enlightening is www.baggagereclaim.co.uk. The articles on there are really good and just seem to get to the point in a brilliantly concise way.

emptycloud · 15/02/2012 08:33

thanks

i did have counselling but it was through the gp and it was never going to work because it was a man, i did get the freedom project books through the post and did it online but found it hard going. my ex pretty much killed off any chance of me finding anyone nearby by spreading vile rumours.

i just get lonely, im on my own all the time :(

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