Am really confused right now and need some advice from people who aren't going to tell me what they think I need to hear!
I have been with dp for almost 10 years and have 3 dc's 8, 5 and 18 months. I haven't been happy for a long time. Nothing major on his part. I have things that I would like to change regards housework, looking after kids, money etc. Stuff that most couples have issues with. But to be honest even if he were to magically start doing all that I'd like I don't think it would change the way i feel. I just don't feel the way I think I should.
I've gone back and forth with this in my head for months, spending a lot of time imagining life without him here (i know, grass is greener, etc etc) worrying about how it would affect the kids, about money. I seemed to have gotten stuck in 'making no decision is a decision in itself' territory.
Well I found out I was pregnant a few days ago and I immediately realised that I had to make a decision one way or the other. I thought I had decided to end it. But I keep wondering if its right. Don't know if I'm worrying about him, feeling sorry about it, guilty for being the one to end it. In truth I'm more worried about having the conversation that I am about being a single parent.
Just looking for some advice, a different prespective. Anyone looking at us wouldn't think there was anything wrong, but I just don't feel for him the way I used to.