Please help me. I can't go on like this.

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I know it sounds so dramatic, but i'm really struggling to see any good right now. This is why...

My dd is really hard to cope with for so many different reasons.
Me and dp really don't belong together, but i'm too afraid to leave.
We still live with my parents and i'm in my late 20's.
I have no career, no job, no money, no idea of what I want to do.
I am really struggling to come to terms with a family members past and it's just horrific.

The list goes on and on really.

Everything seems so hopeless again. I have already had a couple of glasses of wine and I was just going to keep going to be honest, but I thought i'd come on here instead. I can't talk to my friends or family about all this. They'd be shocked and wouldn't have a clue what to say.

I'm starting to feel old and pointless. I can't express how much love I have for my dd, family and close friends.

Why do I feel like this so much?..... I don't know how much more I can take. It's not just 1 or2 aspects of my life which need sorting, it's all of them. Where on earth do I start?............

Posted to soon....

Speak to your GP and arrange some counselling and a safe place for you to talk togeather.

My parents know that he has certain issues. They know he struggles with his anger and that his parents aren't the best company..............that's being polite. They also admire how far he's come though. If you'd met his parents you would be quite shocked as to how different he is......thank goodness!! They know how much he loves us and they would genuinely be gutted if we were to break up. They see him as a son in law even though we're not married. My mum has always been concerned though, that I seem to have more fun with other people. I seem happier and I laugh more, but I think she just thinks that's part of life. I guess parents aren't always the best judge of character. My mum and dad have been together for 40 years, but they don't really get on. I know they love each other, but they are another couple who accept that life's not perfect and there's no point in fantasising about another one, because neither of them will ever leave.

I had the weirdest dream last night. I dreamt I was incredibly in love with someone, as far as i'm aware, I had never met. It was such an intense feeling. A feeling that i've never experienced before. I woke up feeling really sad and deflated. I know it was just a dream, but I can't get it out of my head.

God, that sounds so pathetic doesn't it!