am just numb and upset and stunned.
h has been very crap lately but things had recently been better or so i thought.
anyway i know there was snow and yes it was cold but the heating had been on since 8am ish and i was boiling. got to 12pm and i said can we just turn it off for a bit. had said look i am just wearing a thin top. he started ranting we have got kids with colds you are so selfish blah blah blah. if you are so cold go in the kitchen. then he slammed the kitchen door so hard all the glass on the inside panes smashed.
ds was sitting nearby at his table eating lunch. luckily he didnt get hurt. but obv got a fright then dd started crying. and then just at that time i started having a nosebleed.
anyway he then stormed off. i took the kids upstairs and tried to calm them. then i just said that was really not on at all we should have been able to reach a compromise somehow. then i just got well i am sick of you dont talk to me i am so sick of it and fed up you never listen to me and i get fed up. i said well you need to go clean your mess up. then he did clear up the glass and temporarily fixed the door. then said i am going to work and stormed off. this was at 2pm. he has just come back now and is ignoring me.
i have just carried on with kids routine as would have done normally.
anyway i just dont know where to turn from here. i do now believe things cant really be sorted from here as i felt for the first time that kids were at risk.
but what to do i am sahm and not earning. he pays mortgage and everything else.
just upset and tired of this type of life. this isnt normal behaviour is it? or should i just put it down to a bad day and move on?
he wont ever apologise or accept his mistake but i can tell he feels bad. he will just calm down and act normal in a day or two and if i dare to bring it up or discuss it then will get told to stop stressing him out and going on about it and go away.
well i think it is best that me and the kids do go far away for a long time.
anyway helps to get it out.
am just so upset that the only snow day we get and he ruined it. well not totally i still went out and did snowman etc with ds but it would have been nice to do it all togther like a normal family whatever that is.
thanks for listening anyway.