...can someone hold my hand and talk to me as I hurt so much more than I thought I would and I need to hold it together as my three and a half year old is in the next room. It's all a big long complicated story, but the general gist at the moment is I am in mental health crisis after I discontinued seroxat a couple of weeks ago very rapidly (under doctor's instructions) and started on a new drug called venlafaxine.
DP has been finding it difficult, and I have had trouble with that, and I just felt that we are better off not in the same place right now. I love him and I didn't want to have to do this, but we can't talk as he just blanks out and doesn't want to, I can't show any sort of emotion or I am making his life more difficult and make everything all about me, and I can't continue pretending to be okay when I really don't feel like it just to avoid upsetting him or the kids. With him elsewhere I will cope better.